Sometimes I feel intimidated about making choices. I’ve read a few books and have listened to a few tapes but there are moments where I wonder what life would be like if I had everything I ever wanted.
If I was in a position in where I never decided what I want, then I would constantly think about wanting everything. Then I look at what I have and ask if I really even want all of this.
I think about wanting to be happy. I think also about wanting other people to be happy as well and how I can contribute. But I feel selfish by wanting them to be happy. Then I sometimes do feel a type of guilt when I can’t keep others in that state. Sometimes I wonder if every encounter with negativity can be talked about and resolved only by talking?
Who knows?
Nice day today outside. I might go out to the side of the lake by some trees in the park. With so many subdivions in my area, I find that my freewill can allow me to make it a mission to relax when I need it and take in all the scenery in it’s own wonder. I am also looking for some ways to make additional income. It never hurt to be a working man. I might even plan a trip to Florida this spring break or maybe in another hemisphere. I’m going to also have to fix my MP3 player because it has a mind of it’s own sometimes. Technology can be pretty amazing.
A big weekend ahead, and I have a couple things i must start. Valentine’e day even. Maybe we will all find a gift that makes someone feel closer to the heart.
I rush many times when I shouldn’t either. There is a time to rush and a time to wait. Hope your weekend goes great.
Godspeed.
